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Then came touch. Cold covered the skin. Pressure tightened around the limbs. The weight of the body pulled him downward. The waiting consciousnesses scattered from the rupture, but the damage had already been done.

 

Ha Tu fought toward the light.

 

“𝑂𝑝𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑤𝑎𝑦.”

 

A violent contraction passed through the spine. The heart struck wildly. The lungs tightened, demanding something he did not understand.

 

Ha Tu pressed against the walls of the cranial chamber.

 

“𝑂ℎ, 𝑚𝑦 𝐺𝑜𝑑. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑?”

 

The connection flickered. He reached for it again.

 

“𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒?”

 

The body dragged in its first breath. Air tore through the lungs. Pain burst across the chest. The mouth opened and released a cry Ha Tu had not chosen.

 

He recoiled from the sound.

 

“𝑆𝑡𝑜𝑝.”

 

The body cried again.

 

“𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡.”

 

Another breath entered. It burned through the throat and lungs. Each cry scattered another portion of Ha Tu’s awareness. He searched desperately for the light.

 

“𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑚 𝐼?”

 

The eyes opened. Brightness struck them with such force that Ha Tu pulled deeper into the cranial chamber. Shapes moved around him, enormous and distorted.

 

“𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜?”

 

Hands lifted the body. Every finger touching the skin sent a separate shock through him.

 

“𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜, 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔?”

 

The mouth moved, but the form could not shape his words. Only another frightened cry escaped.

 

“𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑚 𝐼?”

 

Ha Tu searched for the path through which he had entered. The spinal current remained, but he could no longer see beyond it. The five senses surrounded him like walls. An attendant spoke near the body.

 

The ears received vibration without meaning.

 

“𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡?”

 

The voice came again.

 

“𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑢𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢.”

 

A warning surfaced beneath the noise. Inside the body, you may not even remember your name. Ha Tu reached for it.

 

“𝐻𝑎 𝑇𝑢.”

 

The thought weakened. He repeated it.

 

“𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝐻𝑎 𝑇𝑢.”

 

The words no longer felt certain. The body shivered beneath the hands holding it. Cold overwhelmed every attempt to think. Ha Tu searched for the planet from which he had come.

 

Nothing appeared. He tried to remember the journey across the stars, the beings who had warned him, and the purpose that had brought him to Atlantis. The images broke apart.

 

“𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟.”

 

Warmth touched the skin. The sensation dragged his attention away from the fading memories.

 

“𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝐼 𝑎𝑚.”

 

The body’s stomach tightened. Hunger rose through him. It was not a thought or a question. It was a command that pushed everything else aside.

 

The mouth opened. The body began to cry. Ha Tu fought against it.

 

“𝑁𝑜. 𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟.”

 

Hunger twisted harder.

 

“𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡.”

 

The body cried until nourishment touched its tongue. Taste exploded through Ha Tu. Warmth. Sweetness. Relief. For several moments, the Source disappeared completely.

 

When the hunger faded, exhaustion followed. The eyelids grew heavy. The body pulled him toward sleep. Ha Tu resisted.

 

“𝑇𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑆𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑐𝑒. 𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑆𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑐𝑒.”

 

The meaning of the words had already begun to fade. The body breathed. In. Out. In. Out.

 

“𝑁𝑜𝑤 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚.”

 

Warmth surrounded him. Cloth pressed against his skin. A hand passed across his forehead.

 

“𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑑𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑢𝑝𝑝𝑜𝑟𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚.”

 

The body relaxed beneath the touch.

 

“𝑁𝑜𝑤 𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒.”

 

His awareness sank deeper.

 

“𝐼 𝑚𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑠𝑒𝑠.”

 

The eyelids closed.

 

“𝑌𝑒𝑠. 𝐸𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒.”

 

Ha Tu struggled to hold the final word.

 

“𝐸𝑥𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒.”

 

Sleep covered him. Time moved differently within flesh. Ha Tu awakened to hunger, noise, pressure, and light. Each sensation demanded that he turn toward the physical world, but he refused.

 

He would not allow the body to teach him that it was real. Hands lifted him. Warmth surrounded him. A voice repeated sounds near his face, waiting for him to answer. Ha Tu pulled farther inward.

 

“𝑁𝑜.”

 

The word never reached the mouth. The body cried when hunger became too great, but Ha Tu did not choose the cry. He felt the lungs fill, the throat tighten, and the sound tear free without his permission.

 

“𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠.”

 

Nourishment touched his tongue. Taste spread through him, warm and sweet. He tried not to notice it. The body swallowed. Ha Tu recoiled within the cranial chamber.

 

“𝐼 𝑑𝑖𝑑 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡.”

 

The form continued without him. It breathed, slept, digested, and awakened. Its heart beat according to its own rhythm. Instinct reached outward whenever consciousness refused. Ha Tu pressed himself against the deepest part of the Vessel of the Sun. He searched for the pathway to the Source.

 

Nothing opened. Days passed. The Atlanteans carried the body through the temple and placed it beneath carefully arranged crystals. They moved light across its eyes and sounded tones beside its ears.

 

The body reacted. Its pupils narrowed. Its fingers twitched. Its breathing changed. Ha Tu did not answer.

 

An attendant leaned over him.

 

“𝐶𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟 𝑚𝑒?”

 

The sound entered through the ears and struck the cranial chamber. Ha Tu understood nothing at first. Meaning came slowly, gathered from repetition and tone. He turned away from it.

 

The attendant touched his cheek.

 

“𝐿𝑜𝑜𝑘 𝑎𝑡 𝑚𝑒.”

 

Ha Tu pulled deeper into himself. The body’s eyes remained fixed upon the ceiling. A second attendant approached.

 

“𝐻𝑒 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑝𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡.”

 

The first attendant watched the body’s pupils contract.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑑𝑦 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑝𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔.”

 

The second attendant searched Ha Tu’s motionless face.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠?”

 

The first attendant placed two fingers against the body’s wrist.

 

“𝑆𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑡.”

 

Ha Tu heard them speaking about him as though he were hidden somewhere nearby. He wanted to tell them that he was trapped. He wanted them to reopen the pathway.

 

Yet speaking would require him to enter the mouth, the tongue, and the breath. It would mean accepting the form as the instrument through which he must act. He refused.

 

“𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝𝑙𝑦.”

 

The thought remained sealed inside him. The body grew. Its limbs lengthened, though it seldom used them. The Atlanteans moved the arms and legs each day to keep them from stiffening. They sat the form upright and supported its back with cushions.

 

Ha Tu allowed the head to fall forward. An attendant reached beneath his shoulders.

 

“𝐿𝑖𝑓𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛.”

 

Two pairs of hands straightened the body.

 

“𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑢𝑠.”

 

Ha Tu felt every finger against his skin. The contact sickened him. He withdrew until touch became distant.

 

A woman knelt in front of him. Her robe carried the scent of temple oil and sea salt. She lifted his chin.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒.”

 

The body’s eyes faced hers, but Ha Tu did not look through them.

 

“𝐶𝑎𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑚𝑒?”

 

He let the vision blur. She held a crystal near his face. Light moved across its surface in slow bands. The cranial chamber answered with a faint pulse.

 

Ha Tu felt it. For an instant, a memory opened. The lattice. The beings gathered around him. Their warnings. The Earth is not ready. You are not ready.

 

Ha Tu reached toward the memory. The woman moved the crystal closer.

 

“𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑔𝑛𝑖𝑧𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠?”

 

The physical light struck the eyes and shattered the vision. Ha Tu recoiled. The body jerked once.

 

The woman caught his face between her hands.

 

“𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒.”

 

He retreated from her voice.

 

“𝑁𝑜.”

 

Her eyes filled with hope.

 

“𝑌𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑚𝑒.”

 

Ha Tu closed the body’s eyes. The woman waited. He did not open them again.

 

Years gathered around the silent form. The Atlanteans tried sound, touch, light, warmth, and movement. They carried him through gardens so the sun could reach his skin. They placed his hands in water and guided his fingers across carved stone. The body responded to temperature and pressure.

 

Ha Tu refused to participate. A healer pressed a polished disc against his chest and listened to the rhythm within.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑡𝑟𝑜𝑛𝑔.”

 

The attendant looked down at Ha Tu’s motionless limbs.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑦 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒?”

 

The healer removed the polished disc from Ha Tu’s chest.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑚 𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑏𝑙𝑒.”

 

“𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑜𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑?”

 

The healer studied Ha Tu’s unresponsive face.

 

“𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑠𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑤𝑛 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑠𝑒𝑠.”

 

The attendant’s gaze returned to him.

 

“𝐶𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛?”

 

“𝑂𝑛𝑙𝑦 𝑖𝑓 𝑖𝑡 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑠.”

 

Ha Tu heard them. He understood more of their language now, not because he wanted to learn it, but because the body gathered patterns even in silence. He remained hidden.

 

The five senses were the trap. To use them willingly would be to surrender to the form. He believed that if he remained still enough, ignored sensation completely, and refused every demand of the body, the connection to the Source might return. He waited. Nothing came.

 

The beings who had warned him seemed very far away. Sometimes their voices surfaced within the darkness. You have never known hunger.

 

The stomach tightened. Ha Tu ignored it. You have never felt pain.

Between Light and Breath 

Part Three
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